Sound familiar, anyone?
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
How To Get a Girl
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I AM a nice person

Damnit, I am a nice person.
As a nice person, with high expectations for myself and others to also be kind and considerate of others, I'm always extremely let down when others do not ascribe to the same high level of caring and concern that I have.
Worse yet, that same "code" (not quite the same as Dexter's code, but sometimes I wish I could go that route)keeps me from stooping to the level of what some would consider "normal" behavior for someone who has been wronged.
In my world, during shower therapy - long, hot, showers where I daydream about all the coulda-shoulda-woulda's - I think about all the things I could have said, or should do. Many of these thoughts stick with me for days and I debate the wisdom of the course of action I consider. What would be the ultimate gain? Would I feel better for doing it? Would causing someone else discomfort really make me feel any different? Better? Worse? Do I really think that any action I take will truly be viewed in the manner it was intended? If my point was to educate/elucidate a point, would the dumb-ass be bright enough to even grasp the concept?
Ultimately, the answer is "Probably not."
Now, do I come to this conclusion because I'm just a weak-willed person who would rather deal with a situation than create one? Am I someone who will allow herself to be the victim instead of becoming the aggressor? Or am I just a nice person who believes that Karma will even everything up in the end anyway, so why put a deficit in my own account?
Monday, December 1, 2008
Went to the Gym
Last March, the hubby and I joined the gym. It was our 23 wedding anniversary present to one another. We decided we needed to be healthier so we could annoy each other for another 23 years.
We started going regularly and the few pounds hubby had on him melted away.
I was jealous.
I was busting my butt, and really working hard, but no matter what I did, he seemed to do double what I was and was getting better results. grrrr...
Ok, that's not really a healthy attitude, right? So, I tried to deal with my competitive and comparing nature and just keep going. I started walking, as well, and finally, I started seeing some results.... just in time for an injury to stop everything.
Off to the doctor who said to behave myself and figure out when I wanted to take care of my injury. He said it would be a while before I could resume my normal routine. DRATS!! I finally got motivated and into "the groove" and everything...
Then I remembered that I had paid up front for a personal trainer. I called the gym, made the appointment and met with the woman today. She's so tiny, half my height, but she seemed to know what she was doing. I asked her to get me a routine I could do to work around my injury until it was 'all better' and I could then include my other activities into my routine. On Wednesday, I'll know what she's got up her tiny little sleeves for me, but GOOD. I want to move, I need to move. I need to peel myself out of my comfy, warm, warren and force myself out into new situations.
Being a rabbit, we really do love calm and cozy and minimal drama/excitement, but that can lead to stagnation as well. So to hell with my nervousness and fears and self doubts about my ability... let this tiny little woman do what she will. I'm ready for a change anyway.
We started going regularly and the few pounds hubby had on him melted away.
I was jealous.
I was busting my butt, and really working hard, but no matter what I did, he seemed to do double what I was and was getting better results. grrrr...
Ok, that's not really a healthy attitude, right? So, I tried to deal with my competitive and comparing nature and just keep going. I started walking, as well, and finally, I started seeing some results.... just in time for an injury to stop everything.
Off to the doctor who said to behave myself and figure out when I wanted to take care of my injury. He said it would be a while before I could resume my normal routine. DRATS!! I finally got motivated and into "the groove" and everything...
Then I remembered that I had paid up front for a personal trainer. I called the gym, made the appointment and met with the woman today. She's so tiny, half my height, but she seemed to know what she was doing. I asked her to get me a routine I could do to work around my injury until it was 'all better' and I could then include my other activities into my routine. On Wednesday, I'll know what she's got up her tiny little sleeves for me, but GOOD. I want to move, I need to move. I need to peel myself out of my comfy, warm, warren and force myself out into new situations.
Being a rabbit, we really do love calm and cozy and minimal drama/excitement, but that can lead to stagnation as well. So to hell with my nervousness and fears and self doubts about my ability... let this tiny little woman do what she will. I'm ready for a change anyway.
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